Blog Roll!

As I've been so quiet on this blog, I figured I'd take the opportunity to introduce you to my newest and greatest in blogs!

Mysti Guymon-Reutlinger - my baby and strong going blog. There's quite a few comments and tons of avid readers!!

I look forward to seeing you pop and post a comment in this area of the woods.

Stress-free wedding planning!

There's nothing more exciting than knowing you are planning to marry someone and spend your life with them! However, when it comes down to planning a wedding; it seems to take a great deal of excitement out of the engagement. We have come up with a fantastic solution to this growing problem!

We are getting married in Vegas! We will have an extended weekend get-away in Vegas with friends and family! We've picked out a wedding package at one of the many chapels in Vegas which provides us with everything we could need. All we have to do is show up, dressed for the occasion and poof - our weekend will be filled with more fun than we could dream!

I called my friend, Michelle, and she's on notice; with flight plans on stand-by for the incredible day as are a couple others. Talk about a fantastic place to have a bachelor/bachelorette party and wedding, only to be followed with hours of celebrating and carrying on!

So - a tip to all of those who might be looking at a wedding in the future - plan a wedding for Vegas instead of just eloping!! It'll be a blast!

Jadenisms....

"I'm really hungry to me
I'm really hungry to me
I'm really hungryyyy to meeeeeeeeee
I'm really hungry to me!"

That would be the song that has floated around the house; coming from my sweet little boy who is apparently malnourished and underfed todayy and come dinner time; just doesn't know what he's going to do - as his stomach is apparently going to ingest his body and consume him to nothing. :)

It's been a while...

And I must say, there have been many times I've sat down with the intention of blogging a lengthy post or two; yet somehow midst my fingers striking countless keys, I find something in life needing my attention and close the half completed blog and tend to the beautiful life surrounding myself.

Our schedules have changed and life has become, in many ways, filled with much more to keep ourselves busy; as always with the incredible season change and warm weather. My schedule at work is changing; as is the position I hold. I will be working five days a week with split days off. The benefit to all of that is less bickering and a much more stress free work environment for myself. I look forward to that change later this week and welcome the excitement that it shall bring as well.

Wednesday we took a trip to the pediatric allergist in Ft. Collins. It was a difficult and very discouraging trip for myself, and painfully difficult for Jaden as well. The doctor insisted on doing a skin-prick test and after what seemed to be hours of torture; couldn't pass on any information that would prove beneficial. After the hours of research I've done in regards to the matter at hand; I've opted to work out a challenge diet for Jaden; limited to his basic foods and expanding from there. It definitely seems to be the best route to take; keeping Jaden sheltered from fearing doctors worse.

We've spent time working on wedding plans and I must decide who I would like as my other two bridesmaids for the special event. As easy as that choice should be; I am finding it a rather difficult task. One person I would love to have standing at my side resides in Florida and the opportunity to travel is proving to be a bit of a challenge as it is for her. No matter; I would still like her there. The other person is my sister. I couldn't think of anyone else to fill that position; standing at my side as I take my vows and marry Rob; the man I love so intently, deeply and passionately.

Last week brought about a great visit with Rob's sister and family; with whom I hadn't met until that point. I enjoyed the time spent; no matter how short. Heidi and Wade are amazing parents with three absolutely beautiful boys who would melt the heart of the coldest individual. The way all of the cousins interacted was phenomenal. I couldn't have asked for a more grand time.

Rob and I have our first picture together as a couple; or rather our first picture where both of us are willing to share with the world. It was taken at Drew's home; prior to my heading off to work.



It seems to be that time where I wrap it up. Although there are countless thoughts spinning through my mind; it's nearing 1:30 in the morning and I still have a busy day ahead of me tomorrow. I will do my best to blog more frequently; if not here directly, on my writing counterpart.

Wishes for happiness and joy to all!

Wedding Plans

We've reset our wedding date for September 15. There's so much to be done!!! My days off will be filled with so many things - and traveling to Ft. Collins to hit the bridal shops! I'm excited and totally thrilled!

A Moment

There are these little moments that always seem to catch me totally off guard and remind me of how amazing life and living truly are. I've had more than my fair share of those moments in the past couple of weeks and through all of that; I've realized just how much I have in my life. We aren't doing doing things every day and many times spend more time cooped up as a family together in our apartment; but it's been those moments, the family moments together that have left me feeling so blessed.

What happens when you reach that moment when saying "I love you" no longer seems to justify all that you feel? Is that the moment when you realize you've found everything that you could ever want in that relationship? I've reached that point and when I those three words to Rob; they feel so unworthy of everything that I am saying. I have such a deep and incredible sense of love, caring, understanding, respect, honor and desire for an amazing future - together; every single time I say that.

There are moments when I'm sure that everything that we have will be disrupted by something in our lives; as that's been the fantastic pattern in my life; however something is so different this time round and I haven't been able to place it - perhaps it's the way he gets angry when I'm obviously angry at him and I don't want to talk about it right at that moment, maybe it's the way he looks at me and I have to question exactly what is running through his mind at that moment in time - because I do, really, want to know. Whatever it is; the difference, between the relationship that we share and every person that has come into my life before I guess doesn't matter. What matters is we are here and we are now.

I can honestly say that when we talked about getting married in the past and set a date; I was so scared, I didn't want to make a mistake as I will only get married once in my life - and never want to go through a divorce. I questioned everything and actually felt quite disrupted to start. I never spoke to him - or anyone about those feelings and now; they appear to me as a childish way to get out of a commitment - the commitment I couldn't dream of my life without now.

So there it is in a nutshell. I've finally reached the point where I have no doubts, no questions, and all the desire in the world to share all of my time, all of my life and build an amazing family with one man - the man who I love more than that single word could ever encompass in its meaning.

WOW!

It's been over a week since I last sat down and took the time to ramble many thoughts together for public view. This week has held much meaning for myself - and in some ways; incredible growth...

I managed to get through my week of work, which in many ways has turned from a fun place to relax and have fun into that seemingly old familiar disgust that equates to a job that just isn't bringing the same fulfillment. In the course of that time, I've been thinking about taking on a part-time job as a property manager for an apartment complex; which would provide housing and a few other great benefits; as well as allow me to cut back the shifts that I'm working at the bar and hopefully turn that type of job back into the fun and enjoyment that I have loved so much in the past; rather than loathe.

We took a trip away this week; and even though it was short, it was completely enjoyable and totally relaxing. I had an absolute blast with everyone and our night out on the town was well worth it. Those friendships have grown and I feel much more connected with those who were there and had great conversations that have left me feeling so rejuvenated.

The other wonderful thing that has occurred in the last week has been the incredible closeness I've felt with Rob. As I said at one point to a friend this week, we aren't back on track, we are much better than we were before and that, in itself, is beyond incredible. I feel very blessed to have that in my life.

Today is another day and tonight I will be at work; making a living and hopefully enjoying myself for the first time in a while. I'm trying to approach the negative aspects of this job in a much more positive manner. I have had the thought about moving to the cocktail side of the bar at least one night a week; which really, might prove to be a great break, as opposed to being on that other side all the time. There are many options there and we'll see what happens...

Onto other news...

My baby will be three in just a couple of weeks. His birthday is fast approaching and packages are beginning to arrive. I've been shamelessly ordering many spiderman items for his room - including all new bedding for his full-sized big-boy bed! I'm looking forward to the time we are able to spend together with all of Rob's family; including his sister and her family at the Children's museum in Denver. It's going to be an exciting and exhausting day all together; but so worth it, too.

That's it for now... what a week it's been and this coming week can only be bigger and better!

My "weekend"

My weekend is almost over, if weekend is even the right term for those days off that fall within the week. It's time to get ready to start my work week all over again tomorrow. I can't say that these days off have been the best, but I've certainly managed to fair through the anniversary of Reiley's death and came out still on top.

I did spend a good portion of the day on Monday working on edits on one of my children's stories. I have so much more work to get done on that, it's unbelievable. I took all the notes from having a couple different people edit it and combined them, thought logically about them and applied what I felt really fit the story; versus not giving a rats butt. All in all, I think I've ultimately left myself more work to do; but that is the way of life in writing - there's always something else that can create a much better and more carefully construed story.

Tuesday was an adventure for myself and Jaden. We traveled to Wheatland and back as my dear friend, Heath, had a funeral to attend himself and needed a bit of help and support. It was a welcomed break away from everything here and a good distraction for the day. My thoughts and prayers are still with all of your family, Heath.

Today has been fairly laid back, so far. I didn't manage to get anything accomplished this morning that has been gnawing at me on that ever growing to-do list; however, this afternoon did bring about a much needed shopping excursion for groceries and household necessities. Nothing like spending a couple hundred dollars for a few weeks worth of food and such. But, alas, it wasn't the perfect shopping trip as I still forgot a few things that were needed; but they didn't make it to my two page shopping list. I guess there's always a quick trip to the store later.

Tomorrow Jaden has his appointment with the Ear, Nose and Throat specialist and we'll probably have the discussion about Tubes in his ears for the second time. I'm not exactly looking forward to that whole process, but we'll get through it. I'd much rather my son be able to hear correctly and not deal with nasty ear infections than the other alternatives...

On the list of to-do's for tonight - closet reorganization, cleaning house and breaking out the barbecue stuff and grilling steaks. Yum!

I hope everyone has a fantastic week!

Happy Easter!!!!!!!!!

I wish for you to enjoy the time with your loved ones; friends and family, as you feast upon whatever meals land their way to your plate. Celebrate the Greatness of the day, but most of all, remember to show how much you care for those around you!!! They truly are a blessing and must be treated as such.

Friday!

TGIF?? I wish! I have to be at work in an hour and I'm tired, worn out and ready to crawl in bed for the duration. The weather outside is cold, snow-stricken and gloomy. It does make for a great day to sit snuggled up in front of the fireplace with a fire blazing, a couple cups of hot-cocoa or chai tea and a good book or soft music in the background with a pen and paper, allowing me the opportunity to allow my imagination to run rampant on the pages with words carefully construed together; forming a fun story or poem...

And with a snap back into reality; I'm off to finish getting ready for work. Until another day......